Hate is a very strong word. Yet, I hate a lot of things. Here's a short list of some of those things:
when girls wear leggings as pants, slow walkers in the hallway, cold days, commercials, SCHOOL, waking up in the morning, country music, and talking on the phone (awkward!)
But maybe what I hate more than all of those combined is not knowing things. I know that's very broad, but it's also very true. I'm one of those people who needs to know what's going on, who's doing what, who's talking to who, what my schedule is like for a while, what's due when... and so on. In order for me to not go completely insane, I need to know what's going on.
That's why I've been kind of stressin' and anxious lately, because I don't know what my life looks like after May 26th (graduation!!) and that scares me. Throughout my life I've always had the same routine and same things to look forward to. Go to school from September to June, spend the summer at camp, and then do that over again. I always knew what to expect next. But now it's February, I've only heard back from one college, I don't know what to expect from the other three, I'm not 100% sure what my summer plans are yet, and I have absolutely NO IDEA where I am going to be after summer ends.
I already hate not knowing things, but when those things are about my life and where I am going to be in just 3 short months, I hate it even more.
This is a picture I took a while ago, on a day when I felt kind of how I've been feeling lately. That life is just one big question mark.
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